"Good morning, welcome to creative writing 101, I'm Professor Donlon. You're here because you have aspirations, you want to be a successful, published author. Many of you believe you have the talent to be an acclaimed novelist. I'm here because I'd like to see you achieve those objectives."
Looking at the professor I could think of many objectives I'd like to achieve with him. My radar never failed me. An older, intelligent man who wanted to teach me things I didn't know, that could be more than just an objective.
"There are a number of basic implements, rules if you will, that can assist you, make your goal attainable, give you the foundation to build on.
Writing is a demanding mistress, a siren singing melodic refrain's, songs of promises filled with passion. This lady delivers orgasmic pleasure in the words that come easy and she leaves you frustrated and discouraged when she becomes silent, when she refuses to sing to you."
As he continued to speak, although I heard him talking, I couldn't tell you what he was saying, I was too busy looking around the room and asking myself "Layla, what are you doing here?"
I realized that if I were to be serious, decent at what I was doing, I needed help. What was I doing? We'll get to that. Sitting here, taking it all in, seeing the latest and greatest college hopefuls, I wasn't so sure. "Seriously Layla, back in school?"
I haven't been in a classroom for what seems like a lifetime ago. When I graduated from college I had a solid plan. My sole objective was using the degree I worked so diligently for to become independent.
I wanted to achieve financial security and pay off my student loans as fast as was humanly possible. I accomplished what I set out to do.
So why was I sitting in a lecture hall, taking a creative writing course at this stage of my life?
My divorce was final; I was certainly independent. I had achieved financial security and didn't owe a dime. What I didn't have was a someone, I didn't want one, not a forever someone.
I began writing to fill a void, an emptiness I suppose. Maybe I had to find a way to satisfy my sexual desire without being bogged down in the inevitable baggage that comes along with a person.
After being held prisoner in a broken, corrupt, extremely painful marriage, escaping with my sense of practicality still in one piece, I came to the realization that I'm a healthy, normal red blooded woman.
Wait, isn't that how we define any male with a healthy sex drive? How do you describe a single woman who has a healthy sex drive and feeds it? Oh yeah, she's a whore.
It still astounds me, that in the twenty-first century, a sexually active woman without a steady partner, is expected to be celibate. How society defines whats acceptable behavior for her is by giving that person a title. If she is sexually active with a someone, that person is commonly referred to as... the politically correct... widely accepted description of a fuck buddy... a friend with benefits...is now referred to as her "significant other", and that's fine. However, this woman would be considered promiscuous if she frequently had one night stands, because she didn't have a significant other. Why can't she just answer and satisfy her very normal hormonal urges?
God, what a ridiculous use of words, even if they are true, just to get to this point. The fact that I happen to be a woman who actually adores the indulgent satiating decadence of sex, not having a partner left me to my own devices. It became incumbent upon no one but me, to decide out how to satisfy no one, but me.
To be quite blunt, I didn't need a someone. What I needed, was a serious "sexual healing" as so aptly espoused by the great, sadly late, Marvin Gaye. His empathetic understanding of what a sexual healing was is pretty much clarified in his intensely provocative song. Yep, Marvin knew from personal experience what the pain felt like and how to ease it.
Now that I had identified my condition, analyzed it in depth, I had to find what I needed to relieve the recurring symptoms.
I found my relief where most everyone pretty much finds anything these days, usually with great success. I took a seat on the cyber space ship express and surfed the internet.
Once on board, after making several stops along the information super highway, I found my healing.
I was able to find that miracle cure. I found inspiration, sexual arousal, and decadent erotic fantasy. It was all there at my fingertips, no pun intended, well, maybe a small one. There was definitely enough stimulation for an over the counter, self-administered treatment, with guaranteed relief of the symptoms until the next flare up.
I found a bottomless, infinite supply of reasonably arousing incentive that I could best describe as low dosage, non-addictive, stimulation.
I'm a visual person, words become scenes for me. I can transport myself into any story and become one of the characters. So I became whoever I wanted to be and made love to me to complete and utter satisfaction. I certainly didn't need a significant other or anyone else for that.
Predictably; I did in fact, came across a website that offered exactly what I was looking for. The ultimate path to the curative inducement that would relieve my aching symptoms, ease my cravings and give me the healing I needed. I found everything I needed in erotic stories.
I stumbled upon a first class inspiration warehouse that advertised, actually guaranteed the consumer an unlimited inventory of encouragement. Their products were sensual, erotic, and chock-full of lust and desire. There were no high pressure salesmen making deals that reduced the cost only to realize later you paid full price anyway. No, their merchandise, strictly self-service shopping, let you cram your basket with exciting, seductive, sexy, orgasmic stories.
I whipped out my reliable credit card and bought a truckload. I quickly started to guzzle down the words and fell into a bottomless boiling cauldron of unrestrained, satiating, delicious, sweet sexual healing.
There was a medley of selections in the inventory, a menu if you will, for every sexual appetite and palate imaginable. Have a fetish, we can feed it, need a late night snack, an appetizer, well go no further, our chefs are first-rate.
Set the table, bring out the finest china, use your best silverware, light the candles. Corkscrew ready, remove the cork from a bottle of elegant aged wine, let it breathe, pour it into a sparkling crystal glass, and sit down to a five-star meal. Satisfy your hunger with quilt free consumption. No need to count calories, gluttony likely. We offer an "all you can eat buffet" of cleverly prepared, juicy and delicious, satisfying words.
Tasty arousal, simmering low and slow, was delightful. Going back for seconds now and then led to the intense pleasure you taste when you've fed a gastronomical craving. Yes, personally prepared, served by me, self-administered satisfaction was the nourishment that my body was starving for. It was a natural, organic preparation, culminating in a cure for what ailed me.
Masturbation is a little pill of self-love when that's all you have. When the need to relieve stress, tension, or just simple loneliness makes growling sounds in your psyche you can always make love to yourself and find satisfaction if even for a brief instant. Granted, once the exhilaration subsides, you find yourself back in your empty world, but just for a moment your stomach is full and you know you couldn't put another bite in your mouth.
This form of self-healing requires no Doctor's prescription. There's no lover to become involved with, no one interfering with treatment. There's nothing standing in the way, nothing to prevent full recovery, except perhaps the perfect fantasy lover that dwells deep in the recesses of my mind. This lover is a miracle pill, has no side effects and I can't overdose.
I read several stories and subsequently realized, that while a majority of the stories were appetizing they weren't giving me an entree I could devour. Knowing what would excite my taste buds, cure my ache, take me where I needed to go, I thought "I could write this stuff" and so it began. We innately know what feeds us, cures us and leaves us satisfied and healthy.
Did I know that my ambiguous thought would begin a story? Absolutely not, there was no story there. Was it this impulsive, sudden decision that would be the beginning of this story? How could it possibly be the beginning of anything?
It was the beginning.
I began writing explicit, erotic tales of lust and pleasure. Could my sexually stimulating thoughts, my sexual experiences, my personal fantasies actually become stories? I didn't have any idea I could actually write stories, let alone erotica. When I saw them coming to life I was modestly astounded. Surprisingly, they were good. Well, not really good in the beginning, damn if they didn't get better all the same.
I realized that I had to write what I thought about, not what I assumed other people thought. Once I understood that, my writing improved. With developed characters, interesting plots, choosing subject matter I was familiar with, I began to attract a following. Suddenly I was "Favorited" by readers who enjoyed my chosen subject, dirty old men.
Suffice it to say that when it comes to "dirty old men" I am a self-proclaimed expert. My initial experience with an older man occurred when I was eighteen. My "lover" was some sixty plus years my senior, I'd say that qualified him as a card carrying, lifetime member of the "dirty old man club". I could make this story his story, I won't, I've already written that one.
"Does anyone have any questions about what I've covered thus far?"
Dammit Layla, what the hell did he cover? Pay attention woman.
"By the conclusion of this course I will have given you the elements you need to become a creative writer. I will describe how to build a character, how to develop a plot. You'll be reintroduced to the rules of punctuation, grammar and syntax. You'll need to enhance your vocabulary and understand how, when and where to use words to convey your thoughts, to tell the story."
My attention was now fixed on Professor Donlon as he walked back and forth in front of the podium. He was undeniably taking the time to make eye contact with his students. I'd been in enough lecture halls, had observed the professors body language and clearly the professor was making sure we grasped what he was saying.
Then his eyes made contact with mine... there...a smile.
"And you are?"
I expected him to say something else, to begin a dialog, he didn't.
For the rest of the class he never once glanced my way again. I'm sure he asked for my name because although he had a student manifest, knew everyone's name, he was putting a face with each name.
For the remainder of the class the professor essentially laid out his curriculum, gave test dates, expectations on his part and the usual first class information that everyone hears but no one listens to.
Since this was the only class I was taking rushing wasn't necessary so I took my time gathering my things when it ended. I was about ready to go when the professor turned his attention to me.
"Miss Chapwell, may I speak to you for a moment?"
"Yes, by all means."
It didn't take more than a minute to see that the lecture hall was completely empty. Figures, I was the last one there so he wanted to talk to me. About what?
"Could you come down to the podium please?"
I have to admit I was very surprised by his request. What could have happened in the last eighty-five minutes that required a one on one with the Professor? Could he have realized that I wasn't really paying attention for the first half and was going to call me on it?
"Why are you taking my course?"
That was certainly direct, to the point, leaving nothing to my imagination. He didn't look at me when he posed his curious question, he was shuffling papers and resetting his video apparatus for the next class, or, I assumed that was what he doing. Maybe he wasn't looking at me because if he did a raging desire would burn in his loins and? The imagination of a writer, funny isn't it?
There was only one way to answer his question without going into a long expounding dissertation regarding my objective, I'd just be honest.
"I've written a few stories and I recognize the fact that my skills can stand some strengthening. I think taking a creative writing course would be a way of doing that and hopefully allow me to create a solid, complete, finished piece. I believe taking your course will give me the knowledge I'm lacking to achieve that objective."
No, I wasn't a sexy young co-ed sitting in the first row, crossing and uncrossing my bare legs giving him an unobstructed view of iconic gams or my panties and what heaven lay above. In fact, I don't believe he looked my way again after we made initial awkward eye contact. So what did he want?
"Why don't you send me one of your stories, I'd like to read something you've written."
"I'm flattered that you'd like to read something I've written."
"Flattered", really Layla, that's best you could come up with?
All I could do was stand there and feel my brain running rampant. How was I going to tell him my "stories" involved dirty old men, my sexual experiences with them and my personal fantasies about them? While I was stumbling, stuttering in my mind, trying to find the precise words I needed to explain the subject matter of the stories I wrote he made it a moot point.
"Miss Chapman it doesn't matter what the content exposes."
Was it written all over my face?
"I'd like to see who you are; your story will paint a portrait for me, tell me what you can't about yourself. I'll begin to understand how you think, view life, what you feel and why. If you're to get what you need to progress in your writing, you shouldn't be an enigma. Vulnerable, candid lines of communication between the Professor and the student will take you where you ultimately want to be."
"You won't object to answering a question for me then?"
A wry smile began forming in the corners of his mouth. "No, not at all."
"Why me? There are plenty of students taking your course who most likely have the same concerns I have and are lacking the knowledge they need to improve. So, I ask you professor why did you single me out? Obviously there's a hoard of impressionable students who would jump at the chance to be on your radar. "
"I've been doing this for a very long time. I meet scores of students who believe they possess the talent and heart to write the next bestseller. I have to ask myself why a lovely woman, obviously a woman who has the where with all and determination to attend a class three days a week, is willing to commit her time and energy to improve something she's already devoted a part of herself to."
Perception, it's a marvelous thing. I wasn't a young hopeful who didn't know what she wanted. I wasn't sitting in a lecture hall eyeing my male counterparts, convinced that if I couldn't write a best seller I could find a husband who could.
"I'll send you something this afternoon. Thank you for taking an interest in me."
Maybe he was attracted to a woman who had experienced puberty before she walked into the room. That sounds awful cynical. Just think, an older man who could teach me something that would help me improve stories I write for and about older men. Jesus, isn't life great?
"Fine, I look forward to reading you." His mysterious eyes smiled. I had a sense he wanted to read every single page of me.
I did send the professor a story that afternoon. I didn't expect the e-mail I received that evening.
Just finished reading your story and want to congratulate you. You are a talented writer with even greater potential. Whatever happens, KEEP WRITING!! Yours until the sun goes blind and the stars grow cold (lol).
Yes, I am "lovelyladyfaire" the author of erotic tales.
I was to some extent surprised. Either he was genuinely impressed or harboring a rock hard, aching erection, hell, possibly both.
I receive countless e-mails from the men, and remarkably, the women, who read my stories. For the most part they're filled with heartfelt thanks, words of praise for the inspiration, to let's say, find a little sexual healing of their own.
The professor had just redefined our association. Although we would obviously remain Professor and student, he added a contrast factor, "author and reader". In the context of our continually changing relationship I now viewed the man in an entirely different light.
The professor is first and foremost a man. I smiled, a man who might be as predatory as I was. When I came in close proximity to an older man I could feel the craving inside building an appetite that needed to be fed. Could the professor have a taste for what was on my menu? Could my story have given him hunger pangs? Did he want to make a reservation at my restaurant and delight in a five course meal of lust and "luscious" me?
I decided to reply.
Thank you for your positive words Prof. Gav.
I'm afraid I suddenly feel less than a talented writer at all. I do strive to improve with each submission and receiving such encouraging feedback from many of the readers only propels me forward.
I wouldn't be a thinking person if I didn't inquire as to your belief that I have "potential"...
I've honestly searched for a mentor so to speak...perhaps the "literary gods" have gifted me one?
You can most assuredly be mine..."Until the sun goes blind and the stars grow cold"...
In the morning, I woke up with an entirely different mindset.
While I was lying in bed putting yesterday's events into perspective I became absorbed in my own thoughts asking myself why not be the "Luscious Ladyfaire" the professor was obviously taken with.
The funny thing is, I am very much that woman. Not luscious, I wouldn't have chosen that particular word to describe myself, although the fact the professor thought I was certainly didn't do anything to my hurt my self-image, in fact, now that I think about it, I appreciated his assessment.
Layla, is my alter ego. Layla can be, and most often is, the seductive sexy vixen. The woman who is often demanding, can be controlling. Layla also accepts that she is submissive. That dichotomy creates a harmony inside her. She understands and accepts the need, the hunger that drives her. Layla is well aware of what sets her loins on fire so to speak.
There are definitely heated moments of burning desire, often cooled with warmth and understanding. Layla respects pride and protects the dignity of those who need shelter from the self-defeating feelings of inadequacy, perceiving you're less than you once were, feeling less than you are
There certainly is no doubt that I'm fascinated with older men. There is no doubt that in reality I am a sexually submissive personality, for the most part. I've known for most of my adult life that while I am strong minded woman, I am also quite acquiescent sexually. The combination of the two traits has brought me both untold pleasure and sadness.
Dominance is a double edged sword. The man who can dominate me in the sexual arena will do so simply because it gratifies me. Conversely, the man who lacks respect for me will never earn my devotion.
The once young, strong, virile stallions, macho studs, always ready to mount any comely filly that wonders into their pasture become prisoners in the realization that with age comes certain predictable changes. The young man who could raise an impressive erection with a single thought, often finds with age, no matter what he thinks, it's not happening.
Layla contends that the Higher Power, in his/her infinite wisdom, designed man with guaranteed alternatives, ten fingers and a tongue.
Woman was designed to experience paradise with man using each and every one.
I offered those alternative experiences to every older man who reads my stories, creating plausible scenarios with happy endings. My Layla takes them inside her paradise.
Her partner of choice is older, experienced and wise enough to understand and accept that things change and you have to adapt. Layla recreates scenarios she's personally experienced and those fantasies she'd love to live.
There is of course the classic scenario portraying the older professor, being seduced by the nubile, beddable co-ed hoping to improve a grade. I was not a racy young co-ed, couldn't pretend to be. I was Layla, luscious or not, I knew how to be me.
I arrived to the lecture hall early hoping no one else would be there so I would have a few minutes alone with my professor so we could discuss the events from the day before. Unfortunately, he was nowhere in sight.
I took a seat directly in front of the podium. I decided it was fitting for me to introduce the "man" to the "woman" he'd read about.
People began arriving and in a few minutes the room was filled to capacity. The rhythmic, humming murmurs, measured laughter and quiet chaos grew into a deafening silence when they realized the professor entered unannounced. All eyes were focused on the man as he strode across the stage. When he reached the podium, he turned to face me, his eyes focused on me.
With a warm smile, a quiet timbre in his voice, eyes looking directly into mine, he softly spoke.
"Good morning Miss Chapman."
Oddly, at that moment there was absolutely no one else in the room except the professor and me. The peripheral, now eerily silent bodies seemed to become ghostly, disappearing one by one into the air as if they were in a hurried rush trying to fade out of sight.
"Good morning Professor."
Almost immediately he began to look at me, all of me. I followed the movement of his eyes, slowly, deliberately, roaming over my body. The focused facial expressions appeared as though he was taking mental notes to recall at a later time.
I could see he was concentrating. Peering gazes that became the lens of a video cam rapidly committing to its memory all of what he was taking in. I could feel his wandering, yet completely captivated eyes undressing me. Piece by piece he revealed what he was aching to see. With a deep breath, a quiet sigh, and his smile, I felt my nakedness.
"Good morning folks. A slight change in scheduling. We were going to begin a discussion today pertaining to character development. I've put that in next week's work. For today's seminar we're going to view a video, some basic's as regards to the building blocks of any piece. We'll also be finished about thirty minutes early; I have a student consultation to attend."
OMG, maybe there already was a nubile nymphet in the picture?
The professor had a very pleasing way about him. My thoughts were beginning to focus on the man speaking to the room full of people, wanting him to direct his comments to me, and me alone.
"This is good stuff; it will be on the mid-term so pay attention. At the conclusion of the video, if you have any questions please send them to me and I'll post them with my reply on the creative writing forum by Sunday morning. We can have a quick Q&A on Monday. Have a great weekend and keep writing!"
The lights dimmed, the video began and I listened to each and every word, after all, I was here for a specific reason. The professor seemed to have left the room. I was busy taking notes when I saw him walking across the front of the room, heading I assumed, up to the podium. In mid stride he changed direction and was coming towards me. I trembled when he sat down next to me and leaned in to whisper in my ear.
"Miss Chapwell, my office at the conclusion of the session."
The professor got up, didn't wait for me to acknowledge his request, didn't wait for an answer, never looked back and left the room.
It wasn't a request; it was an announcement, a statement that required no answer.
What made him so sure I'd come? It never dawned on me to refuse. It happened so fast I didn't actually have time to think let alone say anything. I had no idea where his office was.
At the conclusion of the video I gathered my belongings and set out to find the professor. Luckily, as I walked out of the hall I remembered seeing a directory. I found his office room number and headed in that direction.
"Luscious Layla, how are you?"
The professor was walking alongside me, appeared out of thin air, speaking quietly. I'm sure he had his reasons.
"Professor, this has been one day full of surprises for sure."
I felt him slip his hand onto the small of my back. "Follow me, we'll talk."
Weaving and dodging through the crowded halls we arrived at his office. Unlocking the door, he opened it and stood aside as I entered.
"Please Layla, why don't you grab a chair and sit down."
I did a quick look around and sat down in a chair in front of his desk. It didn't surprise me at all to see it was covered in mountains of paper.
"Please ignore the clutter, I've been inundated with student requests to critique their work. The holidays and final papers put a kink in the armor so to speak. That's not why you're here. Now that the new semester is under way we begin anew. Give me a minute and I'll be right with you."
This was actually the first time I was witnessing the professor, as the man. I had to chuckle to myself. He was like a whirl y-gig, constantly in motion. I watched him moving things here and there, attempting to bring some sense of order to the chaos, or at least that's what my immediate perception was. Admittedly, I could be way off kilter here, time would tell.
He seemed to be ready to begin the "student consultation" and finally took his seat, leaning back, folding his hands behind his head, there, he was smiling.
"Alright, here we go", he was now focusing directly on me.
"I'm going to assume that you may have thought I wouldn't take you seriously because the story you provided to me was erotic, sexual in nature, written to affect a desired response so that it would appeal to the readers on Literotica. It's not so at all. Layla, you're talented."
I was certainly concerned with the subject matter. My stories are graphic, in what I consider to be a tasteful erotic way, if there is such a thing.
"The main reasons I say that you have even greater potential is your natural facility with words, as well as the fact that you take the time and effort in your erotic fantasies to build character, provide background, and explore the human needs and desires of your people in more than just a sexual way. Most erotic story authors are so anxious to get down and dirty with the reader that they neglect, or just plain forget, these important aspects of telling a tale."
I was sucking down every word that came out of his mouth. I could definitely see myself kissing that mouth. I was wandering, my thoughts were coming from the "luscious Layla" salutation. Pay attention Layla, this is important. I couldn't help wondering what his hands would feel like?
"Most writers on the site don't even bother to acknowledge them. Too bad you're not in my Creative Writing course. You would probably earn an easy "A," and I would have the pleasure of teaching at least one student with the requisite writing talent."
Pardon me? The professor acknowledged my questioning stare.
"Oh wait, you are in my Creative Writing course. Just making sure you're listening."
A warm smile and a look in his eyes that said he knew I was taking his interest and kindness seriously.
"Oh, have no doubt professor. I'm paying attention."
It was more than just paying attention from a purely respectful stance. I genuinely wanted to hear what he had to say, his thoughts, his assessment and what he thought I needed in terms of work and if I could actually improve.
"Yes, I'm listening." I was hanging on his every word.
"Meanwhile, let's begin the mentoring part with you writing just for me, a Professor/Student erotic fantasy starring us. Your grammar, syntax, punctuation, vocabulary choices, and sentence structure could stand some strengthening, so we'll start there. I will edit and critique the finished story, and, when it's ready, you can then submit it to Literotica for publication."
A Professor/Student erotic fantasy starring us? Jesus, this was what every parent warns every pretty little innocent Lolita type co-ed, hormones screaming, oozing sexual cravings from every pore in her body against. It was a damn good thing I was a grown, mature, sensible, intelligent woman who knew better than to become sexually involved with her professor.
Why did it have to be a "fantasy"? Why couldn't it be a "based on a true story" story? The professor fit right in my wheelhouse, he was an older man.
"To answer your question, yes, I would enjoy being your mentor. The Literary Gods seem to have been good to both of us. However, I think it is only fair to warn you that I am also one of those "dirty old men" you write about, and to whom you seem to be attracted, hint, hint."
If you only knew what I've been thinking professor, it just might surprise you. I shifted my body in my seat and intentionally stretched my legs as I crossed, and re-crossed them, hint, hint professor.
A quick glance, downward, to my now crossed legs, and he continued speaking.
"Therefore, there is certain to be a lot of flirting, teasing, temptation, and harmless naughtiness on my part, should we proceed. If you can abide that without becoming offended, then we are good to go."
I've always thought that a word like "therefore" is a momentary reorganization of one's thoughts when the train they were about to board has left the station. "Harmless", I wasn't thinking harmless at all. How about "bring it on professor, let's see where this goes", that's what I was thinking... I could feel him touching me.
"Alright, let's call you my "muse" with benefits. I've always hoped to make a connection with a gentleman, albeit, "a dirty old man" who could not only enjoy my stories, also allow me to see a different prospective, from his point of view. You will find that I speak my mind, and so I will."
For crying out loud Layla, a muse with benefits? Have you lost your perspective here? My brain was saying one thing and my mouth was talking something totally different. Benefits could be very interesting.
"I welcome your naughtiness. I've developed a healthy appetite for flirting, teasing and temptation myself, it's food for the soul. Have I left anything out?"
I could hear my own thoughts screaming at me, "Layla, why don't you just tear your clothes off, swipe his desk clean, climb up and spread your legs?" I'd never been taken on a professor's desk before, wonder if it's just like you see in a movie?
With a smile, a pause, relaxing in a contemplative moment of reflection, the professor replied, "No, I believe you've covered it all, succinctly I might add."
"Seriously professor, I would both welcome and enjoy you."
Did I just offer to... what the hell did I just agree to?
The rapidly developing image in my mind was of a robot, lights flashing, head spinning, arms flailing uncontrollably, warning me in a helium induced, munchkin voice, "Danger, Layla Chapman, Danger, Danger, Danger", I kept right on talking.
"You hold an advantage that others don't, you're privy to my secret fantasy. Furthermore, you are, as you pointed out, an "older man" who has a few fantasies of his own."
The professor's dedicated story line might have just taken an unpredictable detour. His quizzical expression told me his direction suddenly took a left turn and changed from "harmless fantasy" to "based on a true story" am I hearing this right?
"FYI, I am a widower in my mid-fifties. As you will discern from the "professorial" picture there on the wall, I used to be Handsome, Suave, Sophisticated, Debonair, and Witty. Now, alas, I am only the last four."
He was laughing as he described how he saw himself. Not a "haha" I'm being funny laugh, rather an amusing, this is pretty funny, and I'm enjoying the hell out of this laugh. On the contrary professor, I see a quite handsome man sitting across from me.
"Yes, but isn't it true that handsome is in the eyes of the beholder? I'm paraphrasing. I'm old enough to know what I like and young enough to enjoy it. I hold the belief that age is a matter of mind, if you don't mind, it doesn't matter."
"Now it's your turn, are you "Attached," as the Lit profilers so quaintly put it? And, most importantly of all, what are your hopes, dreams, and ambitions regarding your writing?"
"To answer your question regarding my current status, I have a nice life with no entanglements. No, I'm not attached."
There, I opened the proverbial door, would he walk through it? Could he enter my world, become part of it?
"You may find this amusing. I actually believe I have a story that needs to be written, I suppose every fledgling writer or wanna be, truly believes that. For the present I would like to fine tune my skills, understand syntax and the use of vocabulary to enhance a thought without running on adding words just to fill up a page. I've made some improvements along the way, however, I have miles to go before I sleep."
"Regarding that story that "needs to be written," I suggest that, as it takes shape in your imagination, immediately jot down or record any thoughts, feelings, images, etc. you have about it, so that you don't forget them, and have them at hand when you finally get around to writing it. And, yes, that means getting up to do so in the middle of the night, if that happens to be when the muse strikes. That's what good writers do for their craft."
So then, if I'm lying in your arms, quietly mewing, lavishing in the afterglow of torrid lovemaking, you would simply release me and quietly, peacefully, drift into sleep to the sound of my fingers tapping out the images I see in my mind? I wanted to ask him this.
"Layla, I have a class in a few minutes and as much as I would love to sit here and continue this I have to go. Listen, would you be up for dinner with a "dirty old man" this evening? All joking aside, we could continue where we've left off, I'm sure you have questions, and I'd like to hear more about your story."
"That would be wonderful."
My place or yours? What a lame line Layla.
"I'd love to have dinner professor. I'd be happy to cook for you, I'm a pretty good, we could relax with a glass of wine, I do have questions that you could surely provide the answers to."
Do you find lingerie appealing? What color sparks your desire? Do you like long luxurious kisses?
"That sounds great, I haven't had a home cooked meal in a while. I'd be more than happy to take you out, seeing you sitting across the table from me would send all the other dirty old men into a fantasy coma."
His smile was sweet. I could very easily kiss that mouth.
"If you're serious about cooking I'm finished here by three, give me some time to get a shower and change into something comfortable, no pun intended, and I could be at your place say about six, how's that sound?"
"Perfect, I'll send you my address and see you at six then."
"I'll bring the wine, anything that strikes your fancy?"
"I'm sure you're more than capable of striking my fancy. Thank you for your kindness professor. I'll let you go and see you this evening."
"Layla, I'd like you to call me Gav, we can keep the "Professor" for the classroom."
"See you at six Gav." I left his office smiling, inside and out. I looked at the time and realized I had to shower, make dinner, set the table, light the candles...and breathe.
By the time I stopped at the market, got home, set the table and prepared what I thought was something he would enjoy it was nearly five. I took one quick look around, was satisfied with what I saw and headed for the bedroom.
I pulled the quilt down and fluffed the pillows. Yes, you're damn right, I was creating an inviting atmosphere, why not? In less than an hour I would have a "dirty old man" sitting at my table. A man who I could very easily take to my bed and ravage. I'm quite confident that there were more than a few moments when the "Professor" thought about a little ravaging himself. I suddenly remembered I didn't send him my address.
I opened my mail and there was a message from Gav.
Being a faculty member affords me certain privileges. I have your address and will arrive as we agreed, wine in hand, naughtiness, perhaps not so harmless.
I smiled. Resourceful, definitely naughty, and quite charming. It was time to get showered and dressed. I closed my laptop, put some indulgent, sultry, provocative music on and proceeded to the bathroom, shedding my clothes, leaving a trail behind me. I was feeling seductive, sensual and sexy.
The hot steamy water, splashing over my body, feeling like tiny sparks stinging my stiff aching nipples just intensified the urging I was already feeling, it enfolded me in want. The tingling, between my legs, becoming stronger, deeper inside me. I felt a need for some immediate relief from the sexual tension that I felt all day. I reached for the spray head, twisted the neck, felt for the powerful flow I needed, wanted, and put it between my legs.
Streaming warmth, like a wet stiff tongue, darting and teasing, dancing over my so engorged pleasure point, puffed up into a bursting blossom. Steadily pounding pressure, gripping me, holding me in the throes of a pulsating orgasm. Over and over, again and again the muscles in my body tightened, taking my strength away, forcing me to moan and gasp for the air I needed to fill my lungs and try to exhale. I forced myself to wrench the torturing, delicious head away as I sank down onto the floor of the shower and found my breath and relished the aftermath.
A quick glance at the clock on my bedroom wall and I saw I had less than forty-five minutes to dress, finish dinner and calm down, just a bit. I decided simple and classic was the style he would appreciate, the effect I wanted was something else entirely.
My carefully considered choices was an impeccably fitted black wool skirt, body-hugging over my hips, falling softly against my legs, just above my knees. The picture-perfect deep green silk blouse, long embracing sleeves, a plunging scalloped neckline, tiny buttons that looked like perfect emeralds holding it snug across my breasts, emphasizing their fullness. Completing the ensemble with the quintessential black heels. If I were a man, I'd definitely take more than one look.
Underneath, an entirely different inspiration was called for. I wanted to glow with seductive, tempting appeal. There's only one thing that has that unique radiance, luxurious french lace. I made a promise to myself the very first time I felt that deliciousness against my skin, nothing except french lace lingerie would ever grace this body again. We all have our guilty pleasures; this would be mine. I own it, don't apologize for it and bask in the knowledge that I will forever have the capability to nourish my obsession.
Opening the middle drawer in my dresser I knew just what I wanted. My fingers traced the fine threads, felt the smooth satin as I touched just what I was thinking I would choose. This was one of my most treasured sets. Yes, I always make it a point to get the set, bra, panties, teddy and garter belt, one never knows what might be required. The color was deep, with glimmers of sheerness. I love dark, liquid dense blues and greens. Now, these lovelies, this particular ensemble in my hands, was a favorite. Saturated green like a perfect Christmas tree, vivacious color. The delicate lace edge would peek out from the softly scalloped neckline of my blouse, perfectly.
I quickly dressed, brushed my hair, a touch of mascara, plump lips in soft plum, a few dabs of a spicy citrus perfume, one last look and I was finally on my way to the kitchen.
I was ready with almost three minutes to spare. At 6:00PM on the dot the doorbell rang. I was somewhat surprised at the sudden breathless feeling. Was it excitement, nerves, or anticipation? I had to admit it was all three and possibly more. A deep cleansing breath, a few seconds to exhale slowly, trying to calm down as I opened the door, with a smile.
"Welcome professor." Gav looked very dashing, with a smile that would melt your heart.
"Thank you Layla, I'd like you to call me Gav." I liked that, a soft dominance. God Layla, an older man, maybe a bit controlling, intelligent obviously, He must be one hell of a conversationalist.
"Welcome to my home Gav." I had to admit, the professor thing was kind of sexy. I had to take a really deep breath and relax, I could feel myself beginning to fantasize and he wasn't even in the door yet. "Come in please."
Gav walked through the foyer into the great room. He did the immediate and expected quick look around and smiled the whole time.
"You have a beautiful place Layla, somehow I thought you would."
"Thank you Gav, it's a pleasure to have you, please feel at home. I was just getting dinner finished, follow me."
I walked in front of him and okay, yes, I'm sure I added just a touch of sway to my hips. Something told me he expected it, and I certainly didn't want to disappoint.
"I trust you brought your appetite?"
All of them I hope. God Layla, stop it, if you're not careful you'll start blurting this stuff out like a scenario in one of your stories. My better angels were trying desperately to contain me, they usually had one hell of a time.
"You can rest assure that my appetites, each and every one are equally ready to feast. I'm more than prepared for the food, this wine and you, luscious Layla."
The harmless naughtiness was firmly in place.
"I wasn't sure what you liked so I brought a red and a white, you decide, and if I may, I'd be happy to take care of this if you'd show me to the corkscrew?"
We were now in my kitchen, for me, the most welcoming room in the house, except perhaps my bedroom. I can't say in all truthfulness that I haven't welcomed a man or two to share it with me on occasion as you already know.
"Gav, I hope you don't mind having dinner here in the kitchen, this is my favorite room, I'm pretty sure we'll be comfortable here at the counter, unless you prefer to sit down at a regular dining table?" Somehow I was relatively certain we'd be more than okay right where we were.
"Hey, I'm a single man, I eat on the run, standing up, in front of the TV, at my desk, so this is just fine, it's the company that I'm most interested in, so relax, let your hair down, throw off your clothes and we're good to go."
I believe that taking off my clothes is something you'd prefer doing yourself. I wonder what would happen if I stood here, in the middle of the kitchen, slowly opened a button or two, or for that matter all them, he'd probably faint from the rush of blood heading south., after all, he was a dirty old man.
"How about I leave my clothes on for dinner, maybe I'll be dessert?"
"Well in that case, you've no doubt heard that eating dessert first is the only way to go?"
"OK old man, if you think I sweated and slaved in this hot kitchen all afternoon, just to forgo dinner so you can get your just dessert, I think you are sadly mistaken. Eat everything on your plate and we'll see about dessert."
I was smiling the whole time I spewed out that ridiculous narrative regarding "just dessert" that was probably so screwed up it made absolutely no sense at all.
"I bow to the wishes of the lady of the house, serve me woman!"
Gav was laughing almost as much as I was. We were already comfortable with each other; this little back and forth of harmless, yet candid thoughts, was proof positive.
Dinner was yummy, the company, delicious. For what seemed like minutes, an hour had flown by and we were clearing the dishes and pouring yet another glass of wine. I've always maintained that I was a "cheap date", no, not easy, but give me an alcoholic anything and I was happier than a pig in...well you know the rest.
I guess we finished the white and were well into the red when we took the last glass and went into the great room. Funny, I always thought the living room would always be the living room, now it was the great room. In any case, we sat on the oh so comfy couch, modestly apart and began talking about what else... life.
The expected questions were asked and answered. I think, no, I know, we were both very at ease and relaxed with each other. There were the expected sexual innuendos, double entendre, a play on words that left not much to the imagination regarding the definite chemistry between Gav and me. A warm hand on my knee, a gentle caress of his cheek, and we were moving to the next chapter of the story that began with a simple look.
"Come sit next to me Layla." I moved closer and was actually leaning up against Gav, my back to him.
'You are correct in the belief that if I am going to teach you what you really need to know, I have to know who you are, how you think, as well as why you think and feel as you do. What has happened in your life to fill your head with words that become stories? It is MY fantasy that someday soon, our souls, as well as our bodies, will make love with each other. Yes, I think two loving souls can also have sex together."
I thoughtfully listened to each word. I could have been shocked, I could have felt complete surprise. I suppose I might have felt I was being played with, that we were bartering a deal, brokering an agreement, arbitrating a contract. I felt none of this. What I felt was the body of a sweet man, warm, and comfortable. What I heard was a sincere wish to teach me what I needed to know. In order to do this, he needed to know me, understand why I thought the way I did, how I envisioned life, my life. And perhaps more importantly, what I feel and why I feel it.
There was nothing to gain in playing the silly game of "he chased her until she caught him."
I slowly leaned forward and said nothing, neither did Gav. I think he was waiting for a reaction, for words to give him some indication of what was happening here. There was complete silence, giving me time to think, to say anything. Was I going to ask him to leave or perhaps he was contemplating whether or not he should apologize for his blunt honesty.
I reached over and turned out the lamp on the table. The only light in the house came from a candle burning on the kitchen counter. Gav sat up and quite frankly, I suppose he was simply waiting for what was coming next. There was no reason to suspend the game, no reason to send each of us to a neutral corner, no referee to explain the rules. The look in his eyes said he was listening for the bell that would tell him that play was about to begin.
I stood up and looked him in the eyes, I wanted him to know exactly what I was thinking.
"You undressed me in your mind, now do it for real."
A smile and he quietly said, "I want to feel you first."
Gav silently changed position, never saying another word or even making a sound. I would have thought he would say something, make a gesture, acknowledge the obvious fact that I was willing to let him take my clothes off. Nothing came out of his mouth.
He moved forward, and was sitting on the edge of the couch, I was probably no more than a foot away from him. Gently, he placed his hands on my hips urging me closer to him. I was looking down, into his eyes, perceiving what I thought was a look of appreciation, as if he were thanking me for what was coming, what he knew was about to happen.
Gav raised his hands placing them carefully and softly as he caressed my face. Stroking my cheeks, his fingers lightly roving over my skin. I watched silently as he closed his eyes, his hands intently feeling me, in the same manner a blind man would feel the features of a face to recognize the person he was trying to see.
He traced my eyes, as if he was committing to memory what his fingertips felt and his mind was perceiving. When his thumb touched my mouth, it felt like he was drawing a picture, needing every line, every curve to be perfect. Rubbing my lips, with the fleshy smooth ball, pressing against my skin feeling the movement over my wet quivering lips was sensual and sent my body into a soft tremble. Gav sensed through his roaming fingertips my body quivering, he sighed.
"Open your mouth Layla, lick my fingertips." He never opened his eyes, when the wet, smooth edge of my tongue fondled the length of his thumb, licked the warm skin, he moaned.
I was beginning to shudder under his touch. I couldn't watch, I didn't want to witness his handling my body, the searching hands, I wanted to feel his touch, the wicked awareness, I closed my eyes.
I sensed his hands in constant motion, fondling me, caressing my skin, stroking me, cuddling my breasts, burrowing his hands between my thighs, hugging my body against his face. I was mewing, whimpering and on fire.
"You're truly lovely Layla, soft milky skin, your body is indulgent, every curve round and supple, I knew you would feel tender, luscious, I knew it. I imagined it, now I know precisely how pleasing you feel."
I wanted to tell him, say something to him, scream out, make him listen to me. I needed him to know that what he was doing to my body, the things he was saying to me, it was making me senseless. I ached for him, couldn't he recognize this was driving me wild inside, that my body was seething? I wanted him to stop. I couldn't find my voice, I said nothing. I heard myself, a low moaning, my body complaining that it was more than I could stand. He ignored the throaty grumbling sounds, his hands moving and grasping, turning my moans into a silent prayer that I didn't want answered, and I knew I never wanted him to stop.
"Now I want to see you."
Animated hands were grasping the top of my blouse, his fingers methodically releasing each emerald button as if they were precious stones, handling every one prudently, and carefully. I felt the cool air across skin, my breasts, as he unwrapped me, leaving my blouse open, revealing me to his gaze, leering, ogling, staring at me. Impatient, excited hands, gliding each of my arms out of the silky sleeves, peering, considering, finally letting it slide off my body. I was on exhibition and he taking every inch of me in.
"Open your eyes Layla, you want to see me take your clothes off, I know you do. I've waited for this, I need to see all of you, look at your naked body. I want you to watch, you should appreciate what I see. Open your eyes, look at yourself, see what I see."
My eyes were open; I was struggling to see myself in the candlelight, focusing, staring. I looked down and saw my chest heaving with each deep, excited, breath.
My breasts rising and falling, my skin blushed in a deep rose. Gav pulled the zipper on my skirt down carefully, reaching inside the waist, gripping the fabric, tugging, sliding it down over my hips letting it pool at my feet.
"Step out of your skirt... now kick it away... take a few steps back, yes, now turn, slowly Layla, I want to see how you move."
I began turning just as he had asked me to do, slowly, purposely. He was observing me, the shape of my thighs, the fullness in my breasts, the contour in my back, ample curvaceous cheeks, the outline of my legs, the arch in my ankles, each and every inch of me was on display, I was burning inside and quivering outside.
"Look at me Layla, reach behind you and unclasp your bra, hold it against your breasts."
How could he know this was exactly what I wanted to do? Gav was feeding my hunger, the submissive Layla, the woman who loves control, delights in a strong dirty old man, the man who knows what he wants and what I need.
"Is this how I should do it? Is this what you want?"
I reached behind me with my right hand, bringing my left to my breasts. The silence magnified the sound of the clasp springing open, providing suspense for the dramatic unveiling ceremony. Satin straps slinking seductively off my shoulders, resting just above my elbows, letting my generous, full breasts spill unapologetically from the green lace, leaving barely enough to hide erect plump nipples.
"Let it fall."
I brought my right arm across my body as I slowly, agonizingly, inch by inch, allowed my lace to fall from my body, replacing it with my arm.
"You told me to let it fall... look down... it's at my feet... just as you wished."
"Now show me."
"Is this what you want to see Professor?"
My hands cupped the roundness of my breasts, fingers protecting the nuggets of deep plump rose he longed to see. Excruciatingly, insufferably, unhurried, my hands floated down my tender nipples, my milky breasts, over my hips, folding behind me causing my upper body to lurch my stinging, throbbing nipples forward, leaving nothing left to show.
"I believe it's time to finish this story." I was ready for a thrilling, climactic ending.
Turning my back to my audience, I curved my fingers under the waist band of my lace panties. Tugging, lowering, inch by tormenting inch they uncovered the rounded cheeks of milky white skin he was anticipating. Bending forward I dragged the green lace over my knees, dropping down around my ankles, lifting one foot and then the other stepping out of the moist, musky, damp green panties, wet with the convincing evidence that I was extremely aroused. There wasn't a single thread of green on my body.
It was time for the professor to see heaven.
Spinning carefully on the tips of my toes, I revealed the way, offering him the pathway through the pearly gates he was hoping to enter. My legs, sheathed in sheer black decadence simply enhanced the soft milky cloud he was about to ride into paradise.
Gav stood up and took my hand, pulled me close and encircled me with warm arms, pressing up against my body, crushing my breasts against his chest. His breath was hot as he whispered in my ear.
"Luscious Layla, my fantasy is about to become reality."
This was the story that he wanted me to write. What I needed was inspiration. I had every reason to believe that Gav would give me all the material I needed.
We drifted into my bedroom. I crawled up onto my bed and watched Gav as began to take off his clothes, allowing me the pleasure of looking at him. I believe he understood my need to see his body in the way he saw mine, it was as just as satisfying for me. My eyes took in every inch of him. Heaven was waiting, wanting to take him deep into the realm of pleasure we both needed.
Gav kissed, licked and tasted me as he came up the middle of the bed, coming to rest when his body was covering mine. His face above me, looking down into my eyes, his hips between my legs. A warm wet tongue slipped into my mouth, as his throbbing, stiff key thrust into the welcoming heavenly gates, spreading them wide open.
His hands grabbed for my wrists and put them over my head holding them there as his hips began to thrust forward, burying his cock, hard and driving into me. My hips bounded up and took him deep and I held him tight.
"Yesss...that's it Professor Gav, teach me what I need to know."
Gav plunged hard, found a beating solid rhythm. One hand reached for my tits and squeezed, popping my nipples up hard and stiff, begging him to pull and tease me into the orgasm that was building between my legs. The pulsing vibration of my engorged bulging clit rubbing against his cock was very nearly more than I could stand. With each demanding lunge Gav was creating the incredible sensations of both incredible pleasure and aching pain for the release I needed.
"Now, I need it now, do it, give it to me, please Gav, take me there."
I didn't have to say anything, he felt it, the fuse was lit and burning. Gav was arching up, I felt that second, the moment when you stop moving because the blast is taking control. He drove hard and deep, pinching my nipple, bringing the thunder and lightning that lit up my world. I clutched him tight and held him inside, my body gripping and tugging at his spurting cock.
I felt the blazing fire that bursts up in dancing flames. You lay in the arms of a powerful explosion, snatching the sparks like a thief, stealing each and every flash firing in rapid sequence from every single nerve in your body. Your lungs plead for the breath that has escaped and can't be found until the fire burns low.
I felt the weight of Gav's body collapse on me, his head lying on my shoulder, searching for the elusive breath that lets you live again. Slowly, we began to suck in the oxygen our lungs craved. Sweat pouring from all the pores in our bodies, cooling us and putting the fire once again to rest, ready to flare once again when the fuse was lit.
Gav pulled me close to him, kissed my cheek, softly kissed my mouth.
"Did I tell you that I have many fantasy scenario's?" He was smiling, thinking to himself and letting his thoughts take voice. "I have no doubt you could write each and every one."
"I'm sure I can Professor."
Smiling, with an acknowledging shake of his head he whispered, "I bet you will luscious Layla, I bet you will."
Jan 12, 2018 in romance