This is my first submission and I did not have the benefit of an editor. I write for my pleasure and hope that others will enjoy this story also. I know that there are some people that like to anonymously trash and berate the authors and stories. I would enjoy any constructive criticism and will answer or address any legitimate question or concerns. Whether you like it or not please vote. If you hate the story, then give me a low vote, don't waste your time trying to trash it or me.
Chapter One - My perfect life
Some people say that writing down your thoughts is good therapy, well at least that is what my counselor says. So I am going to try it, what do I have to lose that I already haven't lost.
I am Keri Ann Walker, a 35 year old divorced mother of three. I have ten year old twin boys and an 8 year old daughter. I work full time as an emergency room nurse and have since graduating nursing school. Most people say that I am very attractive and could have easily been a model. At five foot even and weighing one hundred pounds, my body is very fit with just the right amount of boobs and butt. I have reddish blond hair and green eyes. My soon to be ex-husband used to just stare into my eyes and would get an erection. I so missed that and him.
I live in a smaller city but is also the county seat. It has a big city attitude but a small town closeness. The Hospital that I work at is the county's only hospital. and as such is quite a large facility. It is affiliated with the state university's medical school, so we get a lot of student doctors coming here to learn their trade. The hospital's emergency room is very busy and I work with a lot of good people. It is here where I met my husband.
When I first started working here, I had my eyes set on latching onto a doctor and becoming a kept wife. Every time there was a new crop of medical students or new doctors come in I was sizing them up. Some of my girl friends and I would invite them out for drinks after work as we would try to find the right guy. I dated several of them and was intimate with a couple. After all, I want marriage and nobody wants to marry a slut.
Some of the married nurses used to make fun of us and say things like we look like hungry vultures waiting to pounce. One of those making fun of us was my friend Joni.
Joni was married and had two kids. Her husband was a firefighter for the county fire department. She and her husband lived on her family's farm outside of town. Her mother owned the farm as her father had passed away a few years earlier. Her father was a firefighter also who died while on duty. He had saved several people and went back into a burning building to search for more victims, when the roof collapsed. He was able to get his crew out saving them, but was not able to save himself. The county had made a memorial to him and even named a park after him. Everyone knew who Jon Walker Sr. was and what a great hero he was. Many families were together today because of his heroics.
Joni also had a brother, Jon Jr. who lived on the farm and had followed in his dad's footsteps. He became a para-medic firefighter and on his days off worked on the farm.
One day, while listening to Joni make fun of us girls, I asked her what she had against us marrying a doctor. Joni replied, nothing, but every doctor I have seen come in here is a wimp. They would never get their hands dirty and are looking for some young nurse for arm candy and to service their needs. Joni continued, I prefer a real man, one who works hard to provided for his family, one who would fight the devil himself to protect his family. I said well that is just in fairytales. Joni said, thank God I live that fairytale every day, because that is how my husband is. She said some day, you are going to find and marry some doctor. You will be spending your life worrying about some other nurse just like you, who will be trying to take him away from you. Look around and see how many of these doctors are divorced.
Now I must admit that this did get me thinking, I did not want to be one of those wives waiting for the axe to fall.
It was a couple of days later that I met her brother Jon Jr. for the first time. He walked into the ER with a patient and I about fell over. Jon was about six feet tall and you could see even in his uniform he was a very muscular and well defined man. He had dark brown hair and hazel eyes. He walked in with an air of confidence. I have never been so attracted to anyone in my life. I noticed that he was very friendly with Joni, so I asked her who he is. Joni looked at me and said. That is my baby brother.
I asked Joni, why had I not seen him before? She replied that he usually works on the rescue truck and not the ambulance, but was filling in today for someone else. I told Joni, I would like to meet him. She looked at me for a second, then she said, Look Keri, I like you as a friend, but I love my brother. I will not introduce you to him as I am not going to let you use him and then hurt him when Mr. Right Doctor comes along. "Forget it" and then she walked away.
Forget it hell. I walked over to him and started talking, I don't even remember what I said. By the time he left, I felt that I was making progress and would surely run into him again soon. Later that day, I ran into a couple of the medics that I knew and asked about Jon. I hinted that I would like to see more of him. They took the bait and called Jon. Now it was a waiting game to see if he would contact me. I must say that I had several erotic dreams about him.
A few days later Joni approached me and said that Jon had asked about me. I asked Joni, what did she tell him. Joni said, I told the truth, however Jon is a big boy and if he wants to go out with you, it is up to him. Of course I was delighted but Joni cautioned me by saying, "don't you dare fuck him over, I would never forgive you for that."
A few days passed and I had not heard from Jon. Joni invited me to come to a BBQ and she told me that Jon would be there. What she didn't tell me was that there would be several single females there also.
The whole day at the BBQ, several women tried to dominate Jon's time. It seems that I was not the only one wanting Jon's affection. Finally, I caught a break and saw Jon head into the house to use the bathroom. I followed him and when he came out of the bathroom, I caught him.
I asked him if he was avoiding me. Jon said well I heard that you wanted to get to know me, but Joni told me that you are hung up on finding a doctor to marry. I will not try to compete with anyone for the love of a woman. Either she loves me and only me or I will move on.
I replied what makes you think that I cannot love one man and only one man. That is exactly what I am looking for. I want to get married and have a family, but most importantly I want to stay married and grow old together.
Jon stared at me for a minute then said, "OK, if you want to go out, how about tomorrow evening. I smiled and said how about tonight.
I decided that this guy might be worth it, so I took it slow. We went out and had a good time. After 3 dates I allowed him to kiss me good night. On the fifth date, I invited him into my apartment and we had a really hot make out session. I refused to let it go beyond some really heavy petting. On the sixth date Jon and I had a discussion about where we were heading.
I explained to Jon that I had strong feelings for him, but I was not going to be a notch in his headboard. I needed to know where this was heading. Now to say that I had strong feelings was an understatement. I was flat out, head over heels in love with him. I had never met a stronger yet gentler person in my life. He made me laugh and when he wasn't around I cried. He was kind and respectful. He was everything that I didn't know that I really wanted.
Jon explained to me that he also would not just jump in bed with somebody. He had to care about that person. He wanted that person to care for him and only him. He asked me if I was that person.
I took Jon by the hand and led him into my bedroom. As I started to undress, Jon said, before we do this I want to know. Are you giving up you dream of catching a doctor and are we going to be exclusive.
I kissed him and said "Yes to all."
I would like to say that we had some great sex that night, but it would be a lie. We made love, it was mind blowing, heart stopping love. When we finally finished and as I snuggled into his strong arms, I cried. If I wasn't in love with him before, I sure as hell was now. In all my life I have never had sex like this.
Jon left early as he had to go on shift when we woke up. When he left I wrapped myself in my sheets just to prolong the essence of him. His smell was on everything. Later in the morning, Jon, sent me a text it read, "thank you for the wonderful evening, I hope that it was as special for you as it was for me."
I replied to his text, "Jon, I hope that I am not scaring you off, But, I love you."
Jon replied. "I love you too"
When I received his reply, my legs gave out on me and I sat on the floor crying. I don't know what he did to me, but I was so in love with him. I have never had this feeling before. I must say he has the body of Hercules, the Intelligence of Einstein, the wisdom of Solomon and the compassion of the Dali Llama all rolled into one. I have never met anyone like him before.
As a lover he is a little bigger than what I was used to he was about nine inches long and as thick as my wrist. I felt stretched and well used after our love session. I noticed that he had used three condoms and had thrown them in the trash can. I pulled them out and tore them open and rubbed his cum all over my tits and body. I laid there for what seemed like for hours basking in Jon's love.
The next day I went to work on cloud nine. Everyone could tell that I was sky high. Joni finally caught up with me and she gave me a stern look then said, If you break his heart I will kill you, now come give me a hug.
After that day Jon and I were inseparable. I gave up on my wish to be a doctor's wife for something so much better. We dated for a year and every day I fell more in love that I could ever have imagined. My parents adored him and I really think Jon's mother loved me also. Joni had really softened to me and even apologized for not wanting to hook me up with Jon.
One day at work, Joni told me that an ambulance was pulling in and that her and I needed to get a suite ready for the patient. The para-medics brought the stretcher in and on the stretcher was Jon. I nearly fainted. I ran to it and screamed oh my god what is wrong, when Jon sat up and said, "I am sick of not being with you, Will You Marry Me?" I was so stunned, I stood there for a moment, while the entire ER went deadly silent. Tears started pouring out of my eyes as I realized Jon had just proposed to me. I jumped on him nodding my head as I could not even get the words out. He held the ring back and said, "Keri, say something." finally I was able to get "YES" out.
We got married and I moved into the house with Jon and his mother. It was no problem as the house was large. Joni and her husband lived on the farm also but in a separate house. Soon I was pregnant and had our twin boys Jon's mom was wonderful and helped me with the children so I was able to go back to work after I finished breast feeding them. A couple of years later, I was pregnant again and this time we had a girl. Jon's mother was there to help.
I thanked God every day for the wonderful life I had.
Chapter Two -
Ten wonderful years had passed and we had settled into a routine. Both Jon and I still worked and on his days off Jon ran the farm with Joni's husband. Jon's mom still lived with us and was starting to really slow down due to age.
I really don't understand how it all fell apart because I was happy and secure in my family. Jon and I still had mind blowing sex and I was still madly in love and infatuated with Jon.
I guess it started by some of the younger nurses started going out for drinks after work and invited me along. Joni always refused saying that being in a bar without her husband is no place for a married lady. I never worried about it as I knew that I loved Jon and nobody would come between us. So a couple of times a week I would stop in for a drink or two and then head home.
One day while out with the girls I ran into Dr. Ben Wilson. Ben and I had dated for a while when he was in training and in fact he was one of the few doctors that I actually slept with. He had left and was working out of state so we stopped seeing each other. Now he was back working locally. We chatted and caught up with each other's lives. I told him about mine and he told me that he was in the process of getting a divorce. He had married a nurse and according to Ben, she had not been faithful in their relationship.
Ben complimented me on staying attractive even after having three kids. He was nice and polite and did nothing to set off any warning bells with me.
It seemed that every time the girls and I went out for a drink, Ben would show up. He was always polite and friendly. Yes he gave me compliments, but I never felt that he was out of line.
Sometimes he would ask me to dance and I would but only fast dances. One night while the girls and I was out, Ben came in and started buy us all drinks. He said his divorce was final and he was celebrating. I actually drank more than normal that night and kind of lost track of time. Ben asked me to dance and I did. We danced 3 fast songs and then a slow song came up. I turned to leave the floor but Ben grabbed my arm and swung me around pulling me into him and said please for old times, I could really use a friend today. So I danced with him.
Maybe it was the alcohol, I don't know, but I should have heard the warning bells ringing. As we danced he told me how depressed he was because of his divorce and how even though she cheated on him, he felt like a failure. He just really needed a friend right now and didn't know anybody in town yet. I stayed and drank more and danced more. When it was time to leave I had had more than what I should have had and I knew that I should not drive yet.
I went outside to clear my head and Ben followed me. It was a little nippy outside so Ben wrapped his arm around me. The next thing I knew he was kissing me and I think I was kissing him back. He guided me to his car and pulled me into the back seat with him. We were making out like two teenagers. Again, and I know it sounds stupid, but, the next thing I knew, we were naked and Ben was pushing his cock into me. I screamed for him to stop, but he just forced it all the way in and started pumping into me. I tried pushing him off of me and screamed again. He tried to cover my mouth but I bit his hand drawing blood. The more I fought the more turned on he became and all of a sudden I felt him shoot is load into me. I cried, "Why, Why did you do this to me?" Ben laughed and said you were always so prissy, but your just another whore.
Just then the car door burst open and a couple of the nurses I was with pulled Ben out and started hitting him. Soon the police arrived. I told them how Ben raped me, and how I fought to get him off of me. The nurses also told how they heard me yelling and saw me fighting. They even saw the bite on Ben's hand. I was taken to the hospital for a rape exam. and Ben was arrested.
You want to talk about embarrassment, The ambulance that came was from the fire department so now everyone would know. Then I was taken to my hospital and everyone there would know.
I was at the hospital about two hours when Jon showed up. He was not allowed to see me until after the detectives had finished interviewing me. Even though I had told Ben that I did not want to have sex, I couldn't show how I had got undressed without him ripping my clothes off. in addition several people had seen me making out with Ben and it appeared that I got in his car willingly. They still charged Ben but said the DA may drop the charges.
Jon took me home and patiently waited for me to tell him what had happened. The next day I sat with him and told him everything as best as I could remember.
Jon was furious. He said that I had no business dancing with another man. I told Jon that I thought that maybe he drugged me and I knew they had taken blood samples for that. For several weeks things were bad between us. I needed Jon and Jon was not there for me. Joni and Jon's mother tried comforting me but even they said it was my own doings as I had no business even going to a bar without my husband.
The DA finally contacted us and met with Jon and I. He decided that he could not prove the rape beyond a reasonable doubt. He said the blood test came back negative for drugs and even though he believed me, he was afraid a jury would side with Ben due to several witnesses seeing me dance with him, make out with him and willingly get into the back seat with him. He was afraid that the jury would think that I had remorse after we had sex.
That meeting kind of drove the nail into the coffin so to speak. Jon moved out of the house. He told me that he needed time away from me. I promised him that I loved only him and that I was sorry for what had happened. Joni and his mom stood by me and gave me the strength to continue.
Jon still came to the farm every day to do the work and see the kids but he never came up to the house or talked to me. I know he talked to Joni and Mom, but if I walked up to him he just left. I cried myself to sleep every night.
Joni and mom tried to get him to forgive me and keep our family together but after several weeks, I was served with divorce papers. For the sake of the kids, Jon wanted me to stay living with mom on the farm until the kids were 18 years old at which time I would have to move. He also provided child support and paid the household bills. Other than that I was on my own.
Jon sued Ben and Ben settled quickly just to keep it out of court. I don't know how much money Jon got but he used it to set up a prepaid college fund for the kids. Ben ended up getting the shit beat out of him. I know that Jon did not do it as he was on duty when it happened and all the firefighters and even a couple of police officers attested to that. I think they sent Ben a message because he quickly moved away.
I fought the divorce and demanded counseling. The judge agreed and for the next six weeks we went to counseling. I admitted to my indiscretions and even passed a polygraph test proving that I did not want to have sex with Ben and that I tried to stop it. Jon said absolutely nothing. He would just sit there. The counselor would threaten to tell the Judge that Jon would not participate and Jon said, go ahead.
The judge brought Jon and I back into court and told Jon that he would require counseling as long as it takes for Jon to participate.
Jon told the Judge, " your honor, I am a firefighter and as such I have to trust my partners to be there for me as my life may depend on them. My wife was my partner and I have lost that trust in her. You can force me to go to counseling but I will never trust her again."
The Judge decided to allow the divorce to proceed.
Jon stopped going to the counselor, but I felt that it would be helpful for me to understand why I did what I did. After several sessions my counselor Mike started telling me that no matter what, Jon would never come back and that I should move on with my life. In fact Mike made several statements putting Jon down and trash talking him.
One night at home I was talking to Jon's mom, when I actually started trash talking about Jon. His mom became angry and asked me where that was coming from and I told her that Mike had said the very thing. She said, "Who is Mike?" I told her he is my counselor. She then said since when do you call your counselor by first names, I think something hokey is going on here. You love Jon and he loves you. Why do you think he wants you to stay in this house as opposed to kicking you out.
The next couple of sessions with Mike were more about moving on even though that is the last thing that I wanted. Mike told me that he wanted to "Observe " me out in public in a social setting to see how I react. This confused me as I never heard of such thing, but Mike said that for me to understand why I did what I did, it would be helpful to see how I was acting in that setting. I agreed to go out with him on Friday. We would meet at his office and he would drive as he wanted to see how the alcohol affected me. On Friday I met with Mike and we went to a club in the next town. I had several drinks and Mike talked me into dancing. After several dances we sat down and Mike bought one more drink.
The next thing I knew I was waking up in the hospital. A police officer was standing by me and wanted to get my statement. I really could not tell him anything as my mind was blank. The next morning a detective came into the room and explained what had happened. It seems that Mike has slipped a drug into my last drink and when I passed out he took me to his car and then tried to rape me. But a good Samaritan prevented him from raping me. They had found the drugs and Mike even confessed to his plans on seducing you. He had told the detective that he had tried to seduce me for weeks but that I would not even take a hint because I still loved my husband. He then planned on drugging me and making me think that I had consensual sex with him. The good Samaritan had observed him spike your drink and when Mike took me to his car to attack me the Samaritan stepped in to protect me until the police got there. By the time the police arrived the Samaritan had pretty much beat the shit out of Mike. Mike confessed just to stop the beating.
This whole ordeal really messed me up. I was now a basket case. Thank God for Joni and mom. I decided that I needed to get myself together, and would allow Jon to have the divorce. Now understand I have no intentions of giving up on getting Jon back. I needed some time
We went back to court and the judge was still reluctant to grant the divorce. I told the judge that I wanted the divorce now because I understand that Jon no longer trusts or loves me like he did. He said that he has never seen two people more in love with each other, otherwise why would Jon do what he did to protect me. I did not understand. The judge said, "Keri it was Jon who prevented you from being raped by that counselor. Jon's mom had told him something funny was up so Jon hid a recorder in your purse. He listened to Mike's attempted seduction of you. He was at the bar the night Mike spiked your drink. It seems to me that if Jon didn't love you, he would not have been there for you.
The judge then decided to grant the divorce with one stipulation. He said the divorce will be final in one year if you two cannot find a way to keep your family together. The divorce will also become final if either of you decide to have a relationship with anyone other than your spouse. Meaning if you start dating, or have any sexual contact with anyone one by any means, then I will assume that neither of you are willing to save this marriage.
The Worst day of my life.
So here I am, sort of in limbo. Working, taking care of the kids, trying to get my head together and mostly loving Jon from afar. I found a new female counselor and have been slowly getting a grip on my life.
Jon at least talks to me now and is usually cordial. I explained to Jon that I still love him and I will do anything to win him back. I told him that if the divorce proceeds it will be because he wants it not me. I also told him that even though I placed myself in a position that I should not have, that I never wanted to have sex with Ben or anyone else. I also told him that I will still honor my vows until the day I die. Which means that I would not have sex with anyone but him, so he had better hurry up and decide to at least become friends with benefits, because it will drive me crazy never having sex again. Jon said we will see, and left it at that.
Several of the young nurses at work would swoon around Jon whenever he brought a patient into the ER and I would tell them that even though we are separated, I would scratch their eyes out if they laid a hand on him. One of the nurses even said well I will keep my hands to myself, but can't speak for my mouth and pussy.
Getting divorced was the worst thing in my life up until the day when history tried to repeat itself.
I was working in the ER when the fire dispatched notified us to be prepared to receive multiple casualties from a structure fire. One of the deputies said that a big apartment building was on fire on the west side of town. I knew that Jon was working on the heavy rescue today and would be at that fire. The deputy said that a news helicopter was flying over head had was showing a live feed. Joni and I went into the lounge to check it out as Joni's husband was the captain on the same rescue as Jon.
The building was fully involved with fire and we could see several people being treated on the ground. Then the worst thing in the world happened. We saw the roof collapses down. The helicopter reporter stated that he thought that firefighters were still in the building and then the station then stopped showing the live feed. The news announcer stated that it was the policy of the station to not show the potential injuries until families have been notified.
One of the deputies that worked as security in the ER switched his radio over to the fire departments frequency and everyone listened:
The radio chattered; "Beep...Beep...Beep Attention all units working the Maple Street fire, evacuate the building and call Par" (Par is to account for all personnel).
We listened intently;
Sector A to command we have Par.
Sector B to command we have Par.
Sector C to command we are still accounting.
Sector D to command we have Par.
Command to sector C do you have Par.
Sector C Negative. We are minus 4, Heavy Rescue 1 is not accounted for.
Both Joni and My eyes started to water up and then we heard the call that put a chill up our spines.
Mayday...Mayday...Mayday...Rescue one is trapped, we have firefighters down. Mayday...Mayday...Mayday
Command to rescue one what is your location?
Command we are on the second floor sector C by the back wall. Roof collapses has us trapped in first apartment from sector D.
Command copy..Hang tight.
Command to Dispatch..Start me an all call and send a fourth and fifth alarm. send all resources to sector C and give me two RIT crews (rapid intervention). Also send me 5 additional medic units..
By this time both Joni and I were crying and everyone was trying to console us. What seemed like forever before we heard the next radio broadcast.
Command from RIT 1, we hear multiple "man down alarms" we are closing in.
Command from RIT 1 we have located Rescue One. We have 3 we are extracting and one heavily entrapped have RIT 2 Assist.
Command to RIT 2 assist RIT 1, Break...Command to Medic units I want my men out of there ASAP.
It was about ten more minutes when the hospital to medic radio chirped.
Medic 3 to County...
Go ahead from County...
Medic 3 we are in route to your facility with a semi conscious 24 year old male firefighter, who was entrapped in a roof collapse while working a structure fire. Patient is suffering from severe smoke inhalation, vital signs are stable, we are sending telemetry and will be treating per protocol.
County to Medic 3 we copy and per Dr. Fields give Patient Cyanide antidote. What is Patient's last name.
Medic 3 copy orders. Patient name is Miller, ETA 7 minutes.
Then we heard,
Medic 7 to County.
County Go ahead.
Medic 7, we have a 43 year old firefighter with same info as Medic 3's patient, we are sending telemetry and treating to protocol, we have an 8 minute eta and will start antidote unless you cancel. Patient name is Wilson. We will clear radio for as other units will follow.
Medic 7 from County we copy and proceed as stated.
At this point Joni perked up as this was her husband. The chief ER doctor told Joni and myself that we were relieved from duty and he requested assistance from ICU to take our places
We were still waiting as my Jon was still out there.
Then the next call came.
Medic 4 to County we have a 28 year old fire fighter who is conscious and alert, we are treating for smoke inhalation and will follow protocol and antidote we have an 8 minute ETA. Patients name is Hadlock.
I fell to the floor, knowing that it is my Jon who was still trapped. Everyone tried comforting me and even Joni was now devastated again. Joni started yelling, this is not fair, first my father and now my brother. We were ushered into a room and soon the hospitals chaplain was standing with us. We kept listening for any news.
The ambulances started pulling in and Joni and I ran to her husband. By this time he was conscious, He looked at Joni with tears in his eyes and said Jon saved us, Jon save us all, but we could not get to him...I am so sorry. It was just like when your dad saved us years ago...Baby I am so sorry...I know I promised not to let anything happen to him. Then the doctors pushed us out of the room.
I looked at Joni and said I didn't know that your dad had save your husband. Joni nodded her head and said the last thing he said was "you're not going to widow my daughter...tell her and my wife that I love them!" It really messed him up for a while. God I pray that Jon doesn't die, it will really mess him up again.
Then we heard the radio again
Medic 1 to County...
County go ahead Medic 1.
County, we are in route to your facility with a 34 year old fire fighter who is in V-Fib. CPR has been started, Patient is intubated and we have two IV's hanging We are following V-Fib protocols Patient also has a Fractured Right Femur, We suspect, Head, Spine and Hip injuries as well. We have a 7 minute ETA. Patients Name is Walker.
Being a nurse I knew that Jon's chances of survival were not good from the radio report. Anybody who is in cardiac arrest from trauma prior to hospital arrival only has about a one percent chance of living. At this point I was praying to God and making every deal that I could with the almighty to save Jon's life. Not for me but for the kids. I know that I have blown my chance, so for once in my life it was not about my happiness but someone else's.
I saw the fire department chaplain walking in the door. He spied me and came over to console Joni and I.
The ambulance pulled up and they quickly removed Jon from the back. I noticed that nobody was doing CPR. I tried to rush to him when I heard one of the Medics say, we got his heart rate back as they rushed him into the trauma room. Joni and I followed but they would not let us in.
Doctors and nurses were examining and working on him. X-ray came banging through the door. I have never seen so many doctors in one room in my life. The Trauma Surgeon was there as well as a Cardiologist and a Pulmonologist, a Renal Specialist, an Orthopedist, a Radiologist and our Brain Surgeon.
While X-ray was doing their job the ER doctor spoke with Joni and I. He explained that he will not know anything until the X-rays were done. He said that Jon was unconscious and his prognosis did not look good. Joni and I were hugging each other when I saw the fire department chaplain pull out a purple stole. I knew they used that for the Last Rights.
I yelled at him NO...
He came and held my hand and calmly said Keri and Joni, I want to give Jon his Last Rights. This does not mean that he won't pull through, but I think that if God decides to take Jon to be with his father, then he would appreciate if the ones he loves are with him, when that time comes. Then he looked right at me and said Keri, do not think for one second that Jon does not love you. He and I have had many conversations about your situation and I can assure you he has never stopped loving you.
About that time Jon's mother came walking into the ER. We brought her up to date as far as Jon's condition and told her that the chaplain wanted to do Last Rights. We encouraged her to wait outside.
She looked at us and said, "When the fire department car pulled up, I already knew. Don't forget, The Chaplain and I have been here before. I have already buried my husband and If God chooses I will bury my son."
We all walked into the room which was now silent except for the beep of the heart monitor. I stood on his left side while Joni stood on his right side and we held his and moms hands while the Chaplain performed the Last Rights. For just a moment I thought I felt him squeeze my hand.
When the Chaplain finished we stepped outside and the Chief of the ER approached us. He said, We have got the x-rays back and found that he has no head, neck, spine injury or pelvis injuries. He has a bad right femur fracture and he is losing blood. We want to operate but are afraid that his heart is still too weak. We are going to try to stabilize him and if all goes well, operate tomorrow. We have put a call out for blood as we will need a lot to keep him going until we can operate. When he gets stronger he should wake up on his own.
They moved Jon to ICU. I told mom that I needed to get the kids but she said don't worry the kids are fine, you need to stay with your husband. I put my head down in shame. Mom lifted my chin up and said, you may have broke his trust in you once. He needs you now. Don't break it again.
I look right into mom's eyes and said. Mom, I swear to you, I will never hurt your son again. I will be there for him until the day I die. She kissed my forehead.
I went down to the cafeteria to get Joni and I some coffee. I was shocked to see a line that extended down the hall and into a waiting room of fire fighters and police officer's all waiting in line at the blood bank. Tears again came down my face and it was at that moment that I truly understood what it meant to trust that your partner would be there for you. This was why Jon and I had not made any progress towards reconciliation. I did not understand the depth of trust that I had violated. These firefighters, Jon's partners had his back, They would never betray him and I did. Now I understand.
I went to the chapel to say a prayer and I made a promise to God that I will earn Jon's trust back and I will never violate that trust again.
Joni spent the night with her husband and I spent the night by Jon's bedside. My parents came over and picked up the kids and everyone agreed to come back for surgery.
By morning Jon had regained some strength and was starting arouse. They started taking him to surgery when he reached his hand to me. I leaned in to kiss him and he whispered, "Keri, I forgive you. Will you forgive me?" I answered yes Jon, I will and I still love you. Then he said, "I wish I had taken you up on the friends with benefits thing as I think it is going to be a long time before I can have sex again." I don't know why, but I started crying again. They wheeled him to surgery.
They were only in surgery for three hours when the doctor came out to greet everyone. With a big smile he said, "Surgery was a success. You will be able to see him in a couple of hours. He further explained that barring any complications that Jon would be in the hospital for the next couple of weeks and then could go home, but would be in a waist / leg cast and would have limited mobility for about another eight to ten weeks. He would not be able to climb stairs, which meant his apartment was out. I said, Jon will move back into the house. I will take FMLA and take care of him. Mom patted me on the hand and Joni smiled.
The Cheater's Handbook
The next several days were like a whirl wind. Jon was progressing well and I tried to stay by him as much as I could. I still had to work and take care of the kids, but I always stopped in before work and on all my breaks. I had lunches with him and even stopped in before I went home. I think Jon barely noticed as there was always someone visiting him. Word had gotten out to the press about Jon's heroics and between the media, the politicians and all the well wishers as well as all the fire fighters and their families visiting I never had any alone time with him.
Several days after the surgery things started to calm down. I was walking up to the nurse's station on my way to visit Jon when I heard the nurses talking. They had not noticed me and rather than interrupt them I proceeded toward Jon's room. I heard one of the nurses say to another nurse, "I just gave our hero a bed bath and Oh My God, have you seen his cock. He was still out from the pain medication so I figured it would be a good time to give him his bed bath and while I was washing him...it, he got an erection and it was huge. He has the most beautiful cock I have ever seen. Believe me, It took all the will power in the world not to just climb on board.
The other nurse said have you no shame? The first nurse replied not when it comes to him. The second nurse said, well to bad he is married. The first nurse replied well...maybe not for long, one of my friends in the ER says that they are in the middle of a divorce. She cheated on him, and only a few more months remain before it is final...and when it is I plan on being on his dance card.
I went into Jon's room, while thinking, "missy, you better have a backup plan because there is no way I am going to give Jon up. Besides I didn't cheat on him!"
Jon was still asleep so I leaned over to kiss his forehead, but then stopped...I kissed him on his/my lips instead.
I stopped back at lunch and Jon was awake. When I walked in he said, "Keri, They tell me that when they discharge me that I am going home to the house, and you are going to take FMLA. You know you don't have to do that. I will be fine."
I could feel by eyebrows curl up and I said, "now you listen to me, I broke your trust once, I don't know why, but it is never going to happen again. I am going to do my duty to you until you kick me out. I know that to you it doesn't mean that the divorce is off, but until that time, I am going to be there for you. I now understand the magnitude of my broken trust to you."
Jon replied, "do you now."
I noticed that every time I came up to visit Jon, little miss hot pants nurse was swooning over him. She would make him treats and bring into work with her and I even saw her visit him on her days off.
I decided to turn it up a notch. I was off the next morning, so I got to the hospital early to see Jon. I wore his favorite sun dress with no under ware or bra. I put a light sweater on so nobody would notice. The nurse who was working on this morning was an old friend of mine, who used to work with me in the ER. I told her that I was going to give Jon his bed bath so she wouldn't have to do it. I said I would appreciate it if he was not disturbed until I finish. Then I winked at her. She smiled and said Keri nobody will be around for the next hour, I appreciate you taking care of his...uh...bed bath.
I walked into the room and shut the door, Jon was still asleep. I removed my sweater and pulled the covers off his good side. I took the soap and water and I started massaging his cock. Within a few seconds it started coming alive. Jon started waking up as I was rinsing it off. He said, "Keri what are you doing?" I reached down and took a hold of his cock and guided my mouth over it. Jon said "Keri, don't, you don't have to do this."
I looked up at him and said, "Jon, scream if you must, it will be pretty embarrassing, probably get me fired. When I said that I am going to take care of you, I meant in every way". Then I shimmed out of my dress and climbed into the bed with him. I would like to say we had some great sex, but with the cast on, I could only really give him a blow job. I made it the best blow job I ever gave. When I was through Jon was cross eyed. He came three times but only once with me vaginally as we had to do it in a difficult position. Now let's see missy hot pants beat that.
From that day forward, I made sure that I either blew Jon or at least stroked him off every day. Jon even got to the point of feeling me up and masturbating me with his fingers.
Finally, they released him to come home. The fire department ambulance brought him home and the guys had even helped me set the house up so Jon could stay on the first floor. We moved our big king sized bed down from the bedroom. The kids were happy that dad was home.
The first night was a little awkward as Jon wanted to talk. He said that he was not sure that we should sleep together as that might give the kids the wrong message. Jon said, even though I have forgiven you, I have not forgotten.
I told him I understand. I quickly left the room so that Jon would not see me crying. Mom was great. She held me then told me to march right back in there and tell Jon that I need to sleep there in case he needs something during the night. We will deal with the kids when the time comes.
I did. We slept together for the first time in a year. It was still three months until the divorce will be final, so I had my work cut out for me. I Asked the court to grant an extension for three additional months. Jon's injury and rehabilitation was most important and I urged the judge to let me finish getting Jon healthy again. Jon did not object, so the judge granted it.
Jon really didn't need much assistance, which left me a lot of time to think. I mostly thought about how stupid I was and how I never saw the seduction coming. I started reading about how people become seduced and started my own web based support group for people that were seduced which caused them to divorce. From my group, I read hundreds of stories about how they became the victim of seduction.
I decided to put it all in print and make a book to help prepare women to be able to recognize and prevent unwanted seduction. I called the book, The Cheater's Handbook. When I finished, I sent it to a publisher who helped me get it edited. They published the book and gave me a small check, until they could see what the book would do in sales.
The book was a huge success and went into multiple printings. It even made the best sellers list. The publisher started sending me huge royalty checks and I even got an invite to the Ellen Show to discuss my book.
Jon and my six months was just about up and the divorce would actually become final on the day I was going to do the Ellen Show. I did not need to be in court as it was just a formality. As much as I tried, Jon just would say, that he has not forgotten.
On the day of the Ellen Show, I did my best to put on a good face, but underneath I was devastated. Ellen was kind and funny. We discussed the book and why I wrote it. I described how I had become victimized by a seducer and that it cost me my marriage. I gave the whole gory details of how I was raped and why the courts would not prosecute the offender. I explained that I wanted to give women the knowledge to prevent what happened to me and thousands of other women from it ever happening to them. I explained that I called it The Cheater's Handbook because it read like a sports playbook. It shows step by step methods that seducers use.
I explained to Ellen and the audience, How I had a fairytale marriage and how I was deeply in love with my husband. I never imagined that I would fall victim to a seducer. To this day I wish I could turn the clock backwards, but the reality of how I had destroyed not only my life but the lives of my husband and children.
Ellen asked me about how I was moving on? I explained that I was going to be the best parent to my children possible and that I was going to make sure that they knew that they were conceived in love and that their father was a wonderful husband and father and that I was the one who failed the family.
Ellen said, don't you think that you are being harsh on yourself?
I replied, No Ellen, to this very day, which is the day out divorce becomes final, I love my husband with all my heart. I know deep down he still loves me but I violated his trust and no matter how much you love somebody, without trust, the relationship will not survive.
Ellen then asked, what advice do you have for our audience?. I said, first off, you might disagree with me on this, but if you are in a relationship or married, stay out of the bars unless your husband is with you. These seducers are trolling the bars for their hook ups and the message that they have is that if you are in the bar without your husband, you are fair game. Bars are not the only place but remember, if you would not do something in front of your husband, then you probably should not be doing it. Secondly if any man tries to put your husband down, to you or in front of you, he has evil intentions and is trying to drive a wedge into your relationship.
Ellen then asked if you could say anything to your husband what would you tell him now. I replied, I would tell him how sorry I was and that no matter what happens I will always love him.
Then Ellen threw a surprise in for me. She said, In all fairness, I think there are women out there that thinks your husband is wrong. After all you did try to stop the situation but was forced to violate your vows. I would like to give him a chance to say to you what he would like to say.
Just then the TV screen for the audience and a monitor in front of me flashed on and there was Jon.
He said, Hi Ellen, I would like to congratulate Keri on the success of her book and I would like to tell her...
Just then the screen went to static and the picture and sound went haywire.
Ellen said to the producers...What is wrong? Then they said just give us a minute, we lost the signal.
Unbeknown to me, the whole time, Jon was in the studio. While I was sitting there waiting, Jon had walked up behind me.
Then I heard Jon say over the monitors, but just as if he was standing next to me. I would like to tell Keri, that I still love her and that I want her back in my life, if she will have me.
Hearing this, I was crying, I couldn't even get a word out, but I know I was nodding my head and finally I said, There is nothing more in my life that I want than having you back.
Ellen said, well don't tell me, turn around and tell that to Jon.
I turned around and Jon was standing there. I jumped up into his arms so fast that I caught him off guard and both of us tumbled over. I was crying and kissing him and promising him that I will make him so happy.
The audience was cheering and clapping and it seemed like eternity before it stopped.
Ellen said, Keri, you are wrong, fairy tales do exist and to help make yours, we are sending you and Jon to a fairy tale Honeymoon to the City of Love, Paris France. Also, I know that today your divorce is final, but that is also not true as Jon had stopped the divorce a month ago. And finally to make a renewed commitment to you marriage, the very judge who refused to give up on you is here to renew your wedding vows...if that is want you want.
The renewed vows were done in front of a live studio audience. Jon had flown his mother, our children, my parents and his sister and her husband to the studio. When he discovered that I was going to be on the Ellen show, he contacted her and explained what he wanted to do. For the last month everyone knew my Jon was coming home except me.
Jon later explained that he wanted to do it this way because of how I unselfishly put myself out there to try to protect others by telling my story which could open me up to public ridicule. He wanted to make an equally strong statement as to his love for me.
Jon finished healing and was now back on the job. He had already given up his apartment and we moved the bed back up to our bedroom. The kids were happy that daddy is home and I, well let's just say that I am still making sure little miss hot pants nurse will get nothing from Jon. Jon now says he goes to work just so he can get some rest.
I am not upset that Jon returned to the fire department. Absolutely not. The world needs more real men like Jon and all the firefighters out there. I worry about what could happen, but I am secure in knowing that I am loved and that he is loved. I trust in his brother and sister firefighters to keep each other safe. I know what it takes to trust and that is the ultimate commitment to each other. I have that commitment to Jon and my family.
The honeymoon was wonderful. Neither Jon or could barely walk by the time we got back. I just came home from work today and have some other news for Jon. It seems that the farm is growing. I am pregnant again and the doctor thinks it will be twins again. Ellen would like an update to our lives and I think that I am going to tell Jon on the live feed update.
Feb 2, 2018 in romance